All we can do is keep moving forward...

10:35PM

Ok, again, I haven't updated in forever but life is so great. This weekend I got a new car, FINALLY! I got a 2005 Sebring Touring in 'Inferno Red'. It is sweet! And today I went and got a new cell phone, I have finally caught up with everyone else in the flip phone movement and I downloaded some sweet ringtones. Ok, I'm tired and that's about all I can think of right now.

The Minnesota trip is coming up in a month and then a month after that I'm off to Tahoe, God life is good!

Current mood: chipper

6:39PM

Current mood: calm

6:25PM - I stole this from Jen, Thanks Jen!!!

Go to Wikipedia and look up your birth day (excluding the year). List three neat facts, two births and one death in your journal, including the year.

September 16th

Events:
1908 - General Motors is founded
1940 - The Selective Service Act is passed, instituting the draft in the United States
1956 - Play-Doh is introduced to the world

Births:
1956 - David Copperfield, American magician
1963 - Richard Marx, American singer 
1971 - Amy Poehler, American actress 

Death:
1087 - Pope Victor III 

Current mood: calm

9:12PM

Only answer Yes or No, can't explain unless someone asks about it in a comment/reply:


1. Taken a picture naked? no
2. Painted your room? no
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? no
4. Drove a car? yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? yes
8. Stole money from friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? no

11. Snuck out of your house? yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? yes
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes

20. Seen someone die? no
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? yes
23. Slept in until 3PM? no
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? yes
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes

30. Fallen asleep at work/school? no
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran a red light? yes
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? no
37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? yes

40. Pole danced? no
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? no
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? no
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes

50. Kissed in the rain? yes
51. Sing in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? no
53. Had a dream that you married someone? no
54. Glued your hand to something? yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? yes
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no

60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? no
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? no
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes

70. Slept naked? no
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
73. Blacked out from drinking? yes
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? no
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no

80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? yes
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Thought about running away? no
85. Ran away? yes
86. Did drugs? no
87. Had detention and not attend it? no
89. Made a parent cry? no

90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Have a dog? yes
94. Own an instrument? yes
95. Been in a band? yes
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
97. Broken a cd? yes
98. Shot a gun? yes

Current mood: good

3:40PM

How many movies have you seen?

(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
( )Boondock Saints
(x)Pirates Of The Carabean
( ) The Mexican
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
(x) Airplane
Total:6

(x) The Princess Bride
(x) Young Frankenstien
(x) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
( ) Saw II
(x) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
( ) Jason 3
Total: 7

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x)American Pie 1
(x)American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
Total: 8

(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
( ) Donnie Darko
(x) Lilo & Stitch.
( ) Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch has a Glitch
Total:7


(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch (jim carrey)
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) Thirteen Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
Total:7

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
(x) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
Total: 8

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) the Terminal
(x) the Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumb & Dumberer
(x)Final Destination
(x)Final Destination 2
( )Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x)The Ring 2
Total: 9

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
Total: 6

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x) Bad Boys
Total: 8

( ) Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride
(x) Se7en
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
TOTAL: 4

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
Total: 4

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
Total: 5

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
Total: 9

( ) Swimfan
(x) Miracle
(x) Old School
(x) The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
Total: 8

(x) Hitch
(x) The Fifth Element
(x) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
( ) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
( ) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
( ) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
( ) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
( ) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
(x) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swim
total: 4

(x) Air Force One
(x) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
( ) People Under the Stairs......
( ) Blue Velvet
(x) Sound of Music
(x) Parent Trap
(x) Parent Trap Re-make
(x) The Birds
(x) The Terminator
( ) Terminator 2
( )T-3
Total: 7

(x) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
(x) Meet Joe Black
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
( ) The Silence of the Lambs
(x) Sleepy Hollow
(x) I Heart Huckabees
( ) 24 Hour Party People
( ) Blood In Blood Out
Total: 5

( ) Thirteen
( ) Manic
( ) Deep Blue Sea
(x) George of the Jungle
( ) Canadian Bacon
( ) How High
( ) The Jacket
( ) My Little Ponys Grand Adventure 2
Total: 1

Total: 113

So apparently if you have seen over 60 you have no life. Ok maybe I have no life, but trust me my lack of life is pretty damn fun and probably more fun than you actual life.

Current mood: tired

4:47PM - I'm back!!!

Hey everybody!!!!

Sorry it's been so long since I've updated. Life has been crazy lately, but oh so great!!!! Today is me and Ryan's 2 month anniversary and that last two months have been wonderful. I won't go on and on about all the mushy girl stuff, but Ryan is so great. He remembers all the little things, like this morning he called me to tell me Happy Two Month Anniversary, so sweet.

Anyway, so basically life is great! That is all...


Oh yeah, here is a great quote I just heard:

"Who knows where life with take you? The road is long and, in the end, the journey is the destination."

Current mood: loved

8:25PM

Current mood: sleepy

1:42PM - Happy New Year!!!!

Well....It's 2006!!!!! Finally last year is done! It's only January 2nd and already the year is looking great! I graduated, I'm starting a great job with benefits, and I just got back from an awesome weekend with Ryan. It's great to know that sometimes all the pieces just fall into place.

Welcome 2006.....this is gonna be good!

Current mood: cheerful

9:35PM

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Current mood: happy

10:48AM

Current mood: cold

7:15PM - Christmas List

OK so I'm horrible at making Christmas lists. I can never remember what I want. So I'm going to start a list in here and whenever I think of something new I'll add it.

Here we go:

• Ipod adapter for my car (not a battery adapter but so I can listen to music on my car speakers)
• Ipod speakers
• Picture frames (3x5)
• Scene It game
• Marble Chess Set
• Sweaters
• Bradley Sweatshirt
• Bradley T-shirt
• Shoes
• Digital Camera
• Skirts/Pants

Movies:

• The Notebook
  
• Ally McBeal Season 1-5
  
• Will & Grace Episodes
  
• Life or Something Like It
  
• View from the Top
  

Current mood: Turkey makes me full & sleepy

9:14PM - As I've matured....

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I’ve learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets.

I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just jackasses.

I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I’ve learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to others — they are more screwed up than you think.

I’ve learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

I’ve learned that it is not what you wear; it is how you take it off.

I’ve learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you’re finished.

I’ve learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things.

I’ve learned that ex’s are like fungus, and keep coming back.

I’ve learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity.

I’ve learned that I don’t suffer from insanity, I enjoy it.

I’ve learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I’ve learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.

I’ve learned that 99% of the time when something isn’t working in your house, one of your kids did it.

I’ve learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity.

I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away. And the real pains in the butt are permanent.

Current mood: relaxed

9:53PM

Barbie took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Longs for tenderness and for a sensitivity of feel..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Current mood: bouncy

9:02PM

I gave head to a Pyromaniac for birth control!

Take the last letter in your first name:

A - I fucked
B - I have
C - I need
D - I sucked
E - I gave head to
F - I got wet n wild with
G - I tasted
H - I played
I - I swallowed down
J - I blew
K - I got down and dirty with
L - I loved
M - I hated
N - I was desperate for
O - I ordered
P - I partied with
Q - I had quickie with
R - I got rowdy with
S - I sold
T - I turned on
U - I gave birth to
V - I stripped for
W - I milked
X - I gave hand to
Y - I aroused
Z - I sold

Take the last letter in your last name:

A - a hobo
B - a male stripper
C - a cat
D - a pencil
E - a naked statue
F - a firefighter
G - a goat
H - a MILF
I - a bastard
J - a male prostitute
K - a clock
L - an adult toy
M - a Louis Vuitton bag
N - a whore
O - a DILF
P - a pimp
Q - a quarter
R - a pornstar
S - a slut
T - a nerd
U - a stuff animal
V - a bitch
W - an ugly fat kid
X - a cheerleader
Y - a gay guy
Z - a pyromaniac

Now take your middle initial (if you have no middle name, put the first letter of your mothers maiden name):

A - and I enjoyed it
B - for a one night stand
C - for money
D - so I could hookup with a jock
E - and I got banged after
F - for a water bra
G - for a cherry flavored condom
H - so I could get a nose job
I - for a vacation
J - for birth control
K - for a shopping spree
L - so people would talk about me
M - and it was hot
N - so I could get butt implants
O - for sex
P - so I could go around naked
Q - all for lust
R - just for the attention
S - for love
T - so I could be sexy
U - all for a fat kid
V - and i hated it
W - all for pleasure
X - so I could get a boob job
Y - for lube
Z - all for a hot guy

NOW REPOST THIS WITH THE TITLE BEING WHATEVER SENTENCE YOU CAME UP WITH

Current mood: complacent

5:46PM

"Which Horror Movie Are You?"

The Blair Witch Project
You feel lost, and like you have noone to talk to. You know there are people there, you know you can get help, but you are too fearful of the outside world to the point of letting noone in. You might have a couple of close friends, but you push them away because your own fears overtake all feelings and emotions you might have. You aren't worrying about a specific thing, just life in general

Current mood: apathetic

5:59PM - Have You...

Have you...

1. smoked a cigarette - Yeah

2. smoked a cigar - Yep at Chris’s wedding

3. crashed a friend's car - Nope

4. stolen a car - no.

5. been in love – No

6. been dumped - Yeah

7. done a shot - Indeed

8. been fired - Nope.

9. been in a fist fight – I don’t think so, just some girl fights- pulling hair and what not

10. snuck out of your house - Yes

11. had feelings for someone who didnt have them back - Of Course

12. been arrested - No

13. made out with a stranger - Yes

14. gone on a blind date – Kind Of

15. lied to a friend – Yes, but not about anything major, just to spare feelings

16. had a crush on a teacher - No

17. skipped school – High School or College? Well, either way it’s yes so I guess it doesn’t matter

18. seen someone die - No

19. been on a plane - Yep

20. thrown up in a bar – Oh yeah, if I’ve been somewhere more than once I’ve probably puked there

21. done hard drugs - Nope

22. miss someone right now - Yes

23. laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by - Yeah

24. made a snow angel – Yeah but it was more like a angel that was too fat to fly, fell in the snow and struggled trying to get up

25. played dress up – Yep still do it sometimes (Going to Walmart dressed like a freak and dancing in the Christmas aisle and the Electronics section!)

26. cheated while playing a game – Yep, quite a few times

27. been lonely - Yeah

28. fallen asleep at work/school –No, I’m too afraid I’ll start talking in my sleep and wake up with the whole class staring at me

29. used a fake id - No.

30. felt an earthquake – Not that I know of

31. touched a snake – Yeah I let it wrap around my arm

32. ran a red light – Yes, but thankfully no one was there so there was no accident

33. had detention – Nope, as if I would do something bad enough to get detention….and not be able to argue my way out of it?

34. been in a car accident – Yep, a few

35. hated the way you cook – Not ussually, I just figure if I cooked more I’d try more complex things, but ussually everything I try to make turns out ok

36. witnessed a crime – ummmm…..I feel like I have but I don’t remember what it was

37. been lost – Yes but not for long

38. been to the opposite side of the country – Well I’ve been to Michigan and Minnesota so the top is covered and I’ve been to Florida and California so that covers most of it, just need to visit somewhere like Maine

39. felt like dying – I’ve felt like I could die, but that’s ussually from embarrassment

40. cried yourself to sleep - Yes

41. played cops and robbers – Maybe when I was little, I don’t remember

42. karaoke – Yes, but OMG it was horrible, Lacey and Tracey can attest to that

43. done something you told yourself you wouldn't – Yes, a few times

44. laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose – I don’t think it ever came out just went up into my nose

45. caught a snowflake on your tongue - Yep.

46. kissed in the rain - No

47. sang in the shower - Yeah

48. made love in a park - Nope

49. had a dream that you married someone -Ueaj

50. glued your hand to something – Me and Jennae used to glue our fingers together in grade school to see if we could hold them together long enough to glue them permanently (God only knows why) but it never worked

51. got your tongue stuck to a flag pole – I think I put my tongue on there but it didn’t stick

52. worn the opposite sex's clothes – Yes, Gangsta Bitch Barbie!!!

53. been a cheerleader – In grade school, unfortunately there are pictures out there somewhere of this crime against nature

54. sat on a roof top – Yeah

55. talked on the phone all night – I don’t know about all night, but I’ve talked to people for serveral hours late at night and sometimes people call at like 2 or 3 in the morning to talk

56. ever too scared to watch scary movies alone - Occasionally

57. played chicken fight – Is that the one where you’re one someone’s shoulders and fight someone on someone else’s shoulders? If so, then yes!

58. been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on – I don’t think so

59. been told you're hot by a complete stranger – I think so, but it might have just been pretty

60. broken a bone - Nope

61. had a 3-some? - No

62. laugh so hard you cried – All the time

63. mooned/flashed someone - Yes

64. cheated on a test – I got a copy of a test from the semester before with the answers so Yeah I guess that’s cheating

65. forgotten someone's name – Every day, I’m so horrible about remembering names!

66. been kicked out of your house - Nope

67. blacked out from drinking – Yes, but it was a good night! (well that parts I remember anyway….)

68. played a prank on someone – Yeah….there was a life threatening virus going around the Florida State campus (that had actually killed a student there) and I had to ask my mom for money to get the vaccine. I called her later that night and told her that the health center nurse tested me and said I already had the disease and there wasn’t anything that they could do. (Cruel but funny…..Don’t worry I told her right after that I was joking!)

69. played in public with your significant other? – I’m going to say No because I don’t know what they mean by “play”

Current mood: hungry

11:23PM - I don't know

My grandpa died last Wednesday and I'm still trying to deal with that. Well, part of the time I'm trying to deal with it and the other part of the time I'm trying to ignore/deny/suppress whatever you want to call it. When I'm trying to deal with it or being forced to deal with it I think about how much I loved him, all the memories (good and bad), all the things he taught me and all the things I am going to miss so much. The other times I'm trying to ignore it for several reasons. When I'm ignoring it, or trying to ignore it, I just try to act fine. If I start to feel sad or think about my grandpa I just cut off the thought and try to think about something else try to get things back to normal. The more I think about it the sadder I get and I hate being sad, plus I feel so watched as to how I'm behaving. Everyone is watching you to see how upset you are and how you're dealing with it. If you're crying or upset they worry about you and want to comfort you (which I appreciate but it just brings more attention to me and makes more people worry about how I'm doing). But if you act fine they worry about you and think you're holding it all in which isn't healthy or I think they think I'm emotionless and don't care. Most of the time I don't know how I feel, but I feel I need to project a fitting emotion for the situation.

I feel bad for everyone in my family, especially my mom and grandma. I am so horrible at offering sympathy or trying to make them feel better. During the visitation yesterday and the funeral today I just felt horrible. I see my mom, dad and brother and sisters crying and as much as I want to comfort them I just can't bring myself to do it and I don't know why. I see them and I just feel so bad and my heart breaks for them but I just can't reach out and hug them, and that is one of the most painful things. I don't know why I'm like that, I just pull away. I think part of the reason is when I'm around them I can't pretend that everything is fine but I also can't just let myself go and let myself feel what I feel, act the way I feel and forget what everyone thinks.

There is one thing that is comforting though. I have absolutely no doubt that my grandpa went to heaven. I'm sad because I am going to miss him so much but I am glad that he's not in pain anymore and I know he's in a better place. But, as selfish and unrealistic as it is, I just wish he was here and healthy and not in pain and that everything was the same as it was before he got sick.

Current mood: sad

3:41PM

What Is Your Best Sexual Skill?
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Flirting Skill Level - 93%
Kissing Skill Level - 51%
Cudding Skill Level - 84%
Sex Skill Level - 81%
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Why They Hate You	You are too sexy.
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Current mood: happy

11:13AM - Search "[your first name] needs" on google.

*I stole this from Jen, thanks Jenni!!!!*

Here's what I got:

Barbie needs a story

Barbie needs slippers

Barbie needs a Himbo (what the F*** is a Himbo?!?!?! - my best guess is a male bimbo? why would you need one of those?)

Barbie needs a hairdresser (well that's brutally honest)

Barbie needs a lot of space to primp and get ready

Barbie needs a reroot (what is a reroot?)

Barbie needs to ‘rev up her game’

Barbie needs to ditch Ken

And the best one:

Barbie needs a change, and Alonzo her personal trainer is just what the doctor
ordered, along with Prozac!!!!!

Current mood: amused

7:56PM - The joy of sweet release!!!

Thank God.....a little break! I did awesome on my last test and now I can relax, well once work is done tomorrow. Then it's a three day weekend. YAY!!!!! I have a whole lot of nothing planned and I am totally looking forward to it!

Current mood: jubilant